A Message of Caution (Updated 3/26)
from The Father, The Son & Holy Spirit
“For so long they have asked, sought and contemplated.
The question, above all questions – who is the antichrist?
Yes, in my WORD I have told you that if you ask you shall receive. However, there is also another truth, when you beg to know an answer whose time has not yet come – if your heart has an incorrect motive sometimes you will receive an answer (sometimes more than once) that is correct but is not THE Most correct answer.
My Word says the lawless one will not be revealed until the restrainer is removed. The Father finds it disturbing that his children are more perplexed over the identity of the antichrist than fully understanding the RESTRAINER!”
A couple of years ago, I too, asked The Lord to show me the identity of the antichrist. It wasn’t long before he presented me with a vision – but as with all things it wasn’t what I expected. The image given was of Obama but he was not illuminated. He was shown to me as “carrying darkness” and “presenting a deception” – but the final surprise came last week when I heard the Holy Spirit utter the term “decoy” in regards to his position as AC.
The numbers of people claiming that he is the antichrist makes him seem like the obvious choice. Unfortunately, it is because he seems like the OBVIOUS choice that this is where things get “sticky.”
When has the devil ever operated in a way that is obvious? His goal is a snare…he did it to Eve – is it not possible he is attempting to do the same to God’s Elect? Don’t get “bent out of shape” over this blog post question, either, ’cause I’m just here writing as called to “MAKE MY PEOPLE THINK!”
The LORD now asks each of you this question:
“Do you recall why I told my disciples that I speak in Parables? In a matter of speaking it was to keep the leaders of religious law, ‘on their toes.’ They sought throughout my ministry every avenue to destroy the work The Father would have me do. They were jealous, conniving and full of pride. Has anything changed since I walked the earth?
What if Obama was indeed the antichrist and everyone knew? What good would that do? How does that help you? How does that help anyone?
Speculation breeds distrust. Have you noticed that?
Speculation breeds DIVISION – and ultimately
Speculation can also breed false revelation.
I had my Daughter previously ‘pen’ a blog post where I had her indicate that WHEN the antichrist was revealed – MY ELECT would instantly recognize him.
I NEED My Elect to Trust ME.
In case you have forgotten, I see all that occurs both on earth and in the Spirit realm. My brethren, try to worry LESS about the antichrist and refocus on The Promises of MY WORD. It is MY WORD that will be your weapon once He is revealed.
The enemy, Satan is having a FIELD DAY knowing how many of you have believed the visions you have been given that Obama is in fact the Son of Perdition. Because by believing in that premise before the moment has actually occurred you leave yourself vulnerable to further deception. Pray over yourself and ask me to help you invoke Psalm 139:23-24. Time is critical. Now is not the time to immerse yourself in debates such as this.
Yes, it is amazing to watch Prophecy unfold…but YOU ALL need to be ready for what actually happens when it does because it will be overwhelming for the mortal mind and conscience. I do not say that lightly.
LOOK To your Father, to I – your Savior and Messiah – and The Ruach. We will guide you into all Truth including the Truth (& the forthcoming identity) of the lawless one.
He is roaming the earth and preparing to reveal himself – so continue to pray for wisdom and understanding But especially for THE LOST.”
The Holy Spirit is in the middle of pouring out Revelation to the flock. If you really want to understand His Word – open up Scripture and it will be shown.
God The Father and The Son want to bless each of their children beyond measure. But part of that blessing involves healing of our Souls and renewing our Spirits.
Our Spirits are renewed by reading The Word but our Souls are healed through Jesus. Part of the reason why so many people are receiving the Obama as AC revelation is that they have not completed what The Spirit refers to as the “Wound Healing Process.” This doesn’t come from me – I’m just passing along what I’m given. But the term “Wound Healing Process” is something MANY need to go through and is part of the reason I was tasked with writing a Testimony.
Obama as a figurative AC represents a wounded soul and its associated emotions. It is both an AntiChrist Spirit but it is bigger than that- it is a Spirit intended to serve as a distraction (hence “decoy”) What better way to inhibit a person from healing emotionally from some type of past trauma or other “scar” than to place in their pathway a symbol representing the ultimate “religious coup” of God’s followers ahead of the real one showing up…
If you are so inclined, look up Peter Gabriel’s music video “Digging in the Dirt.” Be aware, that while the video isn’t offensive – to the True Believer the visuals are somewhat crude, but the MEANING behind the MESSAGE is what you would be looking for. Ask The Great Physician” where you need healing and ask that he help you to achieve it. That’s Jesus ultimate goal – to heal the sick, help them see, reveal his true self through YOU and set the captives FREE!
I pray that in the coming days you are showered by God’s Grace and Mercy, but above all by His Shalom.
“Post this message on this blog site…it needs to be heard by all – Yahshua”
A couple of years ago (March 29, ’16) I was nudged by The Spirit to write a blogpost that many have since read: “A San Andreas Message.”
In my carnal mind, I was just thinking a few weeks back how much in error that piece must have been because nothing has happened; No massive life altering earthquakes or cataclysmic events.
It had me feeling like I didn’t want to come back here to “pen” anything, again. I mean really….how many people out there are making statements or predictions that don’t come true? I don’t want that to be me – even though the idea of cataclysmic events (as foretold in Scripture) isn’t pleasant to think about either!
But something shifted in the week leading up to Spring Break. We were headed for yet another road trip out to California and this time I didn’t feel resistant about it…for some reason I almost felt a sense of excitement. We left predawn Saturday and arrived at 11:55pm Saturday. I felt compelled to get there and I opted to take the night portion of the drive. I knew that I knew I was a supposed to attend church with “Grandpa” the next morning. Suffice it to say, I attended. Enough said.
By Monday, we headed out to Buena Park. This was the 1st of our two round trips across The San Andreas. The first trip didn’t even phase me. And after having written the first San Andreas message, it was weird to feel no fear (Spiritually) in traversing it.
The second time (3/21), however is where this blog post gets its “kick off.”
This time as we were driving through it I noticed that there were homes being developed upon it. As in a housing development…I kid you not. I was flabbergasted by the sight. I thought to myself in the Spirit: “Wow, that’s pretty bold.” That’s when I actually heard a one word reply in response, “Arrogance” – “They know know the risks and they do it in greed and pride.”
As I considered The Spirits response my thoughts were interrupted by further revelation and these words:
“Sleeping” followed by “Giant.”
Then a pause…and I continued to listen.
“I’m listening, Lord”
“Sleeping Giants don’t sleep forever.” “This Fault – and all the faults will awaken.”
Then I understood (when I looked at the hills adjacent to Andreas) that The San Andreas and its sibling fault zones (not just The Ring of Fire but on the 7 continents of the world) the Earth Shaking & Waking would actually be THE LEAST of our troubles.
These Fault zones are associated with a judgement not directly mentioned among The Seals or Trumpets of Revelation…
The Holy Spirit brought this to my attention today. This confirmation is actually the answer to the intepretation of a dream I was given back in 2015.
So Buckle up.
I was reading a James Goll book I picked up from the Library (of all things titled “Hearing God”)…when about 1:30pm on 3/24 The Holy Spirit spoke…
“The coming false flag, intended to rock your world is an event of greater implications.
The real terror arrives in the wake of its aftermath with the arrival of Nephilim across the globe. The Giants will have been released from the chains of their hidden places. Terror and destruction shall chase after the unrepentant but everyone on earth will have to be vigilant. What man shall see is from the bowels of hell unleashing itself.” (Ez 7:3)
Do you want to know what the Seven Thunders of Revelation 10 said? “Release The Giants!” And each of the Seven Thunders represents a continent – with each facing Giants.
The dream I had about the Giants, back when, was frightening. They appeared as large as small office buildings. In the panoramic vision, I didn’t recognize what they were at the time because they were presented to me visually as if they were made of blocks of exposed rock/concrete (This symbolizes their being underground)…these are the offspring of darkness.
They were deadly. Their feet were as big as cars. They were hunting people and few forms of Firepower (had any effect at all) and those who used it would usually perish. There was only one line of defense: the Oil in one’s lamp allowing The Holy Spirit to lead your footsteps.
However, there are TWO Types of Giants that will be released…the 2nd type are the
Children of Light
These are the TWO WITNESSES (The Eagle Nebula)
and the Armies of the 144,000 (pairs of Twins)
(Revelation 7 & 14)
Do you recall how God’s WORD has told us that in the last days men’s hearts will fail them…well, this is why.
I ask that you pray over this and seek The Holy Spirit for yourself. Now, more than ever each of us needs to place ourselves through examination (Ps 139:23-24). I pray that all who read this are counted worthy to escape what’s ahead.
May God Bless and give you His Peace
Isaiah 66 (emphasis on 66:6)
Ezekiel 3 (emphasis on 16-21)
Revelation 11, 10, 7, 14
Message received 12/28-29/17
8:17 am From The Ruach Hakodesh
There are Spirits (Ephesians 6:12) over Washington State and The Northwest. These Spirits are a part of what will make The Cascadia Subduction Zone come to life and domino.
Anyone who lives on or near this vicinity needs to be paying attention.
My daughter has long thought (and wrote some time ago) that the San Andreas would “trigger” a set of devastating geological events along the West Coast. In a manner of speaking, that is true..
Although man places a good deal too much “faith” in his technology
what man has developed by his intellect does not compare to THE WILL of The Father or THE POWER of The Son.
Like it or not, your lives are not just about you.
Many of the people that walk your earth believe they exist in pursuit of pleasure. This is faulty, self-absorbed thinking and a by-product of your sin nature.
You have been given Millenia to understand the how and why for your existence
Unfortunately, the basic lessons that my children should have learned have for the most part gone un-heeded.
The Cascadia Subduction Zone is the “Center Point” of dark spirits in the Northwest. (Job 38:17)
When the Cascadia Zone is released “it shall open one of the portals of the gates of hell.” (direct quote from Ruach) However, by association and by design the Cascadia Fault is part of The Ring of Fire, thus the trigger effect will not only be this portal but the “Ring” of portals. As in Cascadia, will be a “flash point” (there is more than one) for unlocking the gates of hell that are located throughout the earth.
Recall in Luke 21:26 the scripture that mentions Men’s hearts failing them? This is what that verse is referring to the beginning of …”the hordes of hell unleashed.”
(Author Note: This post has been modified since it was first published.)
Magnificent. Beyond Expression.
Yahuveh Ahava is magnificent.
I am Overwhelmed
Upon waking and hearing the song above as the radio began to play at 6:01am…I knew was no accident. I had been woken at about 4am, by the sound of raindrops. I next found myself going into prayer.
That song was followed by this one:
The manifest presence of God is amazing
Pray in The Spirit…
Let Him elevate you Into The Light
He is Glorious
Blog post insight
So the reason for this blog post was quite unexpected. The words wrote themselves and it was the fastest post to publish.
I originally had chosen a different music video than what is there now. That again, is intentional on God’s part. As you watch, “Into The Light”…pay close attention to the frames where you see LIGHT all by itself (it occurs at :48/:50, 1:57/1:58, 2:10/2:11, 2:13/2:14, 3:09). He has directed me to share those specific image frames with you.
I feel the need to mention that there are a couple of frames within this video that gave me pause…but those aren’t to be the focus.
Back to the point: The radio clicked on the morning at about 6am. This is going to sound odd, but when the radio started, I don’t know where I was (in the Spirit) because I started praying at 4am and never stopped. When “This” started I was somewhere between prayer and dozing).
Somehow I had come into the presence of the most amazing Light I have ever seen in my life. It was nothing like the sun and it didn’t hurt my eyes to look at it. The song “Overwhelming” came to mind as the dream/vision was ending and the music on the radio pulled me back. I distinctly remember wanting to get closer to the light. But I wasn’t walking to it. It was as if The Light contained a force that was pulling me to it. For the first time in my life, I felt complete peace and love unlike anything I have ever known. I think I recall that my mind was begging for it not to end.
All the songs that were included were somehow part of what happened. As in, I either felt them happening or heard them when I saw this Light.
It was utter Beauty.
Father, I ask that your manifest presence fall on every soul reading this. And may your Holy Spirit anoint the chosen ones you are about to raise up.
Your reconciliation must happen for restoration…may your will be done and your purposes fulfilled.
I pray that as Judgements fall, the souls far from you…the fence sitters, skeptics and unbelievers, say YES to you.
In Jesus Name, Amen
God Bless and wrap you all in His liquid love.
Not so very long ago, I thought I would write a Memoir.
Then Joy mentioned that it was not to be and as I listened to her words through tears, I was confused. I now understand why her words were truth.
A memoir is something that is written to Chronicle your life – written through your own worldly eyes. A Testimony is entirely different. It is a story that is told from the perspective of The Holy Spirit.
The moments are becoming more frequent where I cannot wait to put pen to paper and resume the work He has given me, guess that should be no surprise. When we delight ourselves in Him, he gives us the desires of our heart (Psalm 37:4)
However, I do not know how long I will continue that work because I recently had a vision of a wall-style clock and its hands were spinning so fast they were almost out of control.
While we need to be aware that things are going to happen that will leave us in shock, in awe; sad and grieved, that they are happening – they were foretold. They are more than the beginning of birth pains. They are our sorrows and His.
In fact, I am reminded that I had written about this 4 months ago when I was given a vision about Darkness Descending.
As darkness continues to descend, something is going to happen. This is tied to the Event that is ahead. God has told us within His Word that His Spirit resides within us. For those that have completely given themselves over to the Work of The Spirit, to God’s plan for The Earth, this event is tied to you.
You need to recognize what is happening and what is at stake. Recall Ephesians 6:10-18, that we fight not against flesh and blood but against that which is unseen. That is exactly what this is about. Consider this video snippet. Tris is sent into an induced simulation. But even in this simulation, she is dealing with a reality…an alternate reality:
Tris doesn’t make the choice in the simulation and EVEN THAT affects her result. If it didn’t matter that this was JUST in her MIND, consider how much more important IT IS FOR US.
Jesus tells us specifically that the battle starts in the mind. Have you ever read the end Zechariah 14? You might want to…I won’t say more than that right now.
Instead, I’ll spell it out…the enemy has an army, but so does God. If you haven’t noticed there are a lot of voices out there saying the moment of decision isn’t just ahead; it’s here, it’s now.
What that means is, your decision doesn’t get to wait until your facing Yahushua at the Judgement seat of Christ. The decision rests on you, in this moment – now. It rested on the hearts and minds of the 59 souls who lost their lives in Las Vegas. And WE ALL pray they were right with God.
I’ll add this right now…Father, I lift up those souls to you NOW and ask you to give them the chance to say YES to you and acknowledge who YOU ARE.
Reading this on your laptop or device you might laugh at the idea about the concept of having to “chose,” but I don’t recommend it. Our enemy is out to steal, kill and destroy and he isn’t out to make promises he can keep.
God doesn’t want to see that happen, he doesn’t want anyone to perish. The enemy lives in the dark and he prowls the earth. (Job 1:7)
God does not just LIVE in the Light – HE IS THE LIGHT.
Thus, we approach the ultimate showdown and that is what you need to understand. If you have not read the Book of Revelation or the Book of Genesis, you should. Because Revelation wraps up what was begun in the Book of Genesis.
The Serpent tempted Eve. Have you ever figured out how Eve stumbled? I went back to Genesis and studied Eve because we have a lot to learn from her. the devil twisted his words intentionally to throw Eve off. She was unprepared for it…she ever so slightly misquoted The Father’s Words and that is how the enemy took the upper hand.
Well, the battles addressed in the gospels of the New Testament and especially in the Book of Revelation, is the conclusion of that epic saga.
Adam and Eve were innocent and naive. Ultimately, Eve is blamed for the fall of man (this is prophetic ladies, because ultimately a woman give birth to a man who reconciles ALL). Eve’s stumble doesn’t have to be repeated by us. She wouldn’t want us to “fall” into the same error she did.
I think Eve would want us to be Encouraged as we MOVE forward.
And as each of us IS being moved we need to remember that God knows where He needs us and will get us there.
Per Daniel (12:4) the books of prophecy were to be sealed until the time of The End. I believe The Holy Spirit is sharing with each of his beloved certain specifics regarding “The day and the hour.” Know that each of you who is committed to our Creator is going to be called forth and enlisted in God’s Army. And that is a GOOD thing. What I will share here, is that I’ve been shown Daniel 12:3 is actually referring to The 5 Wise Virgins.
Don’t be unprepared. Fight the good fight and ASK for your placement.
Know where you STAND and Remember that the darkness cannot exist where there is LIGHT.
Be ARMORED up (Eph 6:10-18) and ready because…
The Call is about to be made.
Please forgive me in advance – because this is rather lengthy.
Some of you may have noticed that about 10 days ago I wrote and initially published a blog post that I then made “Private.” Within hours of having written it, I changed it to a “Private setting.” Something about that post frightened and alarmed me. I just re-read it though and the theme of what I wrote then is very, very similar to what will be shared here.
Suffice it to say, what The Spirit wants, The Spirit gets…
I was just at Trader Joe’s this morning and while perusing the aisles a song came on whose melody I recognized (and I kid you not) it stopped me in my tracks. I just stood there trying to listen to it as best I could. In that moment, I fought with myself about coming back here to write. It is the song I heard that prompts this message.
When I wrote my last blog testimony about the day I escaped abduction as a Pre-Schooler, the brief comment thread exchange with (reader) Tony took me by surprise. I went so far as to start appealing to God about His directive earlier this week to resume the work of that testimony…
“What you do not understand, daughter, is that your willingness to try is what I SEEK. I need to know that you will be obedient to me, that you will listen.” The bigger lesson came shortly after when I understood that the very lives we lead will eventually depend on our ability to listen and hear Him in the coming days….
I also thought I had only been in the wilderness since March of this year. As I have taken time to look back – really look back (my arms and hands are beginning to tremble as I write this) I now understand this trip in the Wilderness has actually been a long term experience that began in November of 1983.
You may have heard some people say that the Wilderness isn’t a place anyone wants to be.
That’s true – The Wilderness isn’t fun but analyzing the wilderness got me to thinking. The Wilderness is where The ACTION happens but it is also where your FAITH comes to life. The Wilderness is where Yeshua shows you the condition of your heart.
Men and Women who walk this earth today: you are all shaped by your experiences over time. You are not the person you were yesterday and if every day is a Hap-Hap-Happy day with only good in it, you have no opportunity to grow. Challenge and adversity is WHAT allows God to be able to stretch you. To build your faith…
This is what happened to
David facing Goliath, Daniel and The Lion’s; Shadrach Meshach and Abednego and the Furnace; Naomi and Ruth…Esther & The King (Such a Time as This,) and ALL the Bible legends from Genesis through Jesus in The Testament.
Having just finished reading the amazing John Maxwell “Giants” Series every person in the Bible (named and unnamed) matters! By the way, when I mention “unnamed” that includes YOU, dear reader, …because The Bible is still unfolding!
(Pardon the rabbit trail…)
The day of my near abduction when I was (about) 6 forever changed the framework of how I looked at myself and especially at others. I may have been born into sin…but that brush with that man made me unclean.
The next turning point arrived the day of Mom’s funeral. It was the moment I made myself look at her in that casket. It was the first time as a naive and gullible 15 year old that I had to look death in the face.
That was the moment I stepped into the wilderness and that wilderness would last a while and would be followed by ever-increasing challenges (and the ever increasing, yet unseen, presence of God.)
I recall someone, some time ago telling me in passing what a “strong” person I was. That’s what the Wilderness does to you. But please know, that’s God’s design. He doesn’t do it to be mean. He does it out of love. How do we learn to survive if Immanuel doesn’t work WITH US to understand His Ways?
I mentioned in the last blog post “Purpose Achieved” that I would write here again if called to. Well, I haven’t been called to but that Madonna song really got to me. If it’s possible for a secular song to speak volumes, that one did today. And I really believe you need to hear and know this.
Until I watched this video and looked up the song’s history on line, I did not know “Live to Tell” was released March 26, 1986. It was written for the movie titled, “At Close Range.” Not so coincidentally, March 1986 is the same month and year my Dad died.
This is the song to listen to. Here is the music video:
Here is what you need to know, or what many of you have learned and are in the process of learning:
The Wilderness is a tough place to be. It isn’t fun and it’s anything but pleasant.
But, THE WILDERNESS is COMING. And God does want you ready for it! So LEAN into HIM!
There are many people who have just entered a Wilderness or maybe have been there for the last year or so. But…
There is a WILDERNESS coming that everyone will have to experience. The Wilderness is a direct result of the Steamroller.
I don’t know how I know this, but I do. I don’t know when it will be here but I continue to understand it is JUST AHEAD. This dream excerpt and interpretation will explain why:
This is from a post earlier this year. After months of prayer I’ve received a full interpretation as to the symbolism…and when it was given I got so nauseous (still am) and began to weep.
Dream – “Steamroller”
On Wednesday April 26, around 12:19pm, I was reading the Book of Mysteries and my Bible when I laid down to rest. This is kind of unusual for me mid-day. But as I set the time for 40 minutes…
I laid down and closed my eyes…ready to just float.
Moments later, just as I started dozing, I saw it. It was a flash that lasted ever so briefly.
I was in a car, I was on a street I drive everyday. I know exactly where I was.
In front of me appeared a LARGER than life piece of road construction equipment (OR a better visual is equipment used by the Oil and Gas industry when they are working in the fields. I have seen pictures of these types of equipment and they are Gigantic/HUMONGOUS.)
The road I was on is two lanes either direction in addition to a turning lane (and, I am to note, that both in real life and in this dream, just ahead of where I was at is located the “overpass” of a road that runs East/West: 44/66)
This equipment was on my side of the road – taking up BOTH lanes. I was driving Northbound the equipment was heading Southbound. There was one other car ahead of me or in my vicinity, near me. I have this recollection that the car was white and it was slightly ahead of and, to the side.
It appeared there was no way around this thing without swerving over into the Southbound lanes (or possibly the turning lane) or wait for God’s divine intervention to intercede and move this larger than life monstrosity. But this THING had no business being where it was. In hindsight too, while I was driving it almost felt like in THAT moment time had stopped and there was a “Pause” in the clock.
In the dream, the moment I realized this obstruction was right there – my body jolted me back, I felt this happen and the vision ended. But right before I completely awoke – the weirdest thing happened; I heard the word, “Sutra”
Here is the interpretation of what I saw:
The equipment in the middle of the road resembled field equipment for oil and gas but in reality it is a “Steamroller” and relates to the book of Isaiah.
Specifically Isaiah 66.
Most Specifically I was shown the scripture Isaiah 66:6. The commotion will be across the city, all cities. And God has always said that vengeance would be His.
(One note of interest: Isaiah 66:7 seems to point back to Revelation 12 and there was quite a bit of news this past week regarding the Revelation 12 sign on 9/23. I did not expect anything to happen on 9/23/17 because this occurrence was more of a “time marker.”)
As far as the word “Sutra” is concerned the impact of this steamroller EVENT will be “thread-like” and have “far-reaching effects.”
Because on the flip side, that Steamroller also represents the level of idolatry that man has committed against God in his heart. (Isaiah 44: 9-11)
The last scripture I was guided to include tonight relates to the time mentioned above – 12:19
First, look at Rev 19:12..
Then I flipped over to Rev 12 and looked for Revelation 12:19. ..but there is no 12:19.
Revelation 12:18 is the conclusion of Chapter 12 and leads into Revelation 13: The Beast out of the Sea….
Incidentally, someone was driving that Steamroller…
Original Scripture Verses that accompany this message:
I first understood to look up the Book of Isaiah
Then I proceeded to look up
1 Corinthians 12:19
Please pardon my posting another message today.
I ran across this video of a dream/vision someone posted on youtube.
I am sharing it here because upon viewing it and hearing the words “astronaut” and “something hidden” in “space” I KNEW that there is someone that reads this blog that is supposed to watch it.
I am not clear on what it means…
In The Father’s Hands.
I went to bed early. Exhaustion had permeated my being: physically, emotionally and spiritually. I was ready to just curl up under my covers and hibernate.
Sleep arrived quickly, which didn’t happen often.
I don’t know how I got to where I was, but I distinctly remember “hovering” in the air, over a city suburb.
I recognized the area. We (someone was with me) were in Kent. Positioned near the last tennis club I’d trained at prior to stepping away from competitive tennis. This is where I had trained with the club Pro, during my last year of competition. My Father had opted to let someone else work with me during the weekdays.
Since Dad was still working and Mom was retired, if I needed to go somewhere, Mom would drop me off and pick me up.
In this vision, I could see from afar that her car was leaving the club parking lot. I knew she and I were both inside the vehicle (even though I was looking on the scene, from above, as an observer) and we would be driving the familiar route home; heading up the long winding drive back to Federal Way from Kent.
Just as the car was hillside, I went from hovering and airborne to sitting in the front passenger seat. This is where I used to sit when Mom and I would drive together.
In this vision, she was wearing her favorite outfit. A blue jacket, white long-sleeved blouse that had a multi-colored grape print and navy blue slacks. Her eyes focused straight ahead, both hands on the wheel. I turned from looking at her to looking forward and started talking.
“I’ve missed you so much, Mom. Dad’s missed you so much. There is so much I want to share with you. So many things to say. I never got to say goodbye. I never thought you’d die. I need you so much, I have so many questions to ask. I don’t even know where to start.”
I turned my head from looking forward (or at the surroundings outside the car) back to my Mom. But Mom’s visual appearance had changed; her clothing had changed, her general appearance.
In an instant, she had – what I would call – “transfigured” (look up Matthew 17:1-9) because her appearance had gone from what I recognized on earth to something ethereal. Her presence resembled more of what we would call, “Angelic.”
Her favorite outfit was gone and it was as if she were clothed in white linen. Not the linen you and I would recognize. This was almost formless. I really couldn’t make out a definite form of earthly body. I knew it was her, but she was different. She was now perfect. She had been changed.
Without turning to look at me, Mom kept her eyes focused forward and spoke:
“Everything will be alright. It will all work out.”
[As she started to answer, something else happened. I had initially turned my head to look her direction when I asked my question. I also saw something that stunned me.
Positioned initially out of view, perched between the driver’s and passenger seat appeared a brilliant light. It was fiery in the middle and glowed radiance outward. It was the brightest light I had (and still have) ever seen. I only saw it for a moment.]
Her response was not the answer I was looking for but it was the answer God intended for me, at that time.
Once I turned away from looking at Mom and made visual contact with “The Light” I was translated outside the car and hovering over a valley. Not necessarily the Kent Valley. I saw the car ascending the top of a hill and driving up, over and beyond it. It all happened lightning fast. The car was gone and she disappeared. I really wanted to go with her, but it wasn’t my time yet. This would have to be enough to suffice.
If God’s intent was to give me hope, I guess he did.
While I didn’t get to connect with her as I would have liked to in life…he gave me two things I needed, actually three:
1) He let me see her, first as I remembered her in life, in context of our way of life.
2) Then he showed me that she was no longer of this world.
3) That she was now in His presence. Living in peace, perfection and out of pain.
Looking back, this vision was also indicating a prophetic change for me. My Dad had always been my Coach. He’d trained me. They had both been active in my tennis development. Whether practice, commuting or competition.
In this vision, I knew subconsciously Mom was gone. It took me much longer to understand this meant my Dad had transitioned “away” from being my coach. I now understand that this vision was a sign that not only would I no longer compete but be an indication that changes were coming and would happen fast.
God had removed my Mother from the earth and this was indicating that my Father’s place in my life would be changing, too. It was not a message I would have wanted to know back then and was not ready to understand until recently.
Just as God tells us everything we need to know in His Word, to navigate this life. This vision had a multi-layered message designed to be revealed at His choosing and in His timing.
Like an onion, time is his tool. While preparing the onion might cause me to tear up/cry during the “Prep Work” the final product is what he is after. God is revealing what I need to know, as it is beneficial. He does this out of Love. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Mom had raised me and taken care of me, nurturing me like a mother is designed to. But this transition was Him letting me know that He was in control. He always had been and would continue to be faithful.
Mom’s journey was complete and now it was my turn to walk with Him. She and I never had eye contact and our conversation was limited by the nature of God’s laws. However, His was a reassurance to me that even though I would no longer see her in this life, she had fulfilled her purpose and had gone onto glory. I was now In The Father’s Hands. He actually had full control of the car, the destination and my purpose.
The Spiritual Realm is and always has been very real. God is not about to leave my side. He won’t leave yours either.
He never has. He never will. He takes care of his Sheep, He had created both of us. I needed to trust, just as she had.
John 10:27New Living Translation (NLT)
27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.
Spring 1993 –
It was a late evening. Sometime between 10pm and Midnight.
I was in the front passenger seat of a car.
I’d leaned my head against the door window and looked up at the night time sky. Where we were driving, in Eastern Washington State, we were many miles from the intrusive lights of the city.
There was nothing to interfere with my view of the stars, which on this spring evening meant– there were too many to count.
I gazed across the atmosphere at the Milky Way. It was only the 2nd or 3rd time I’d seen it with my own eyes. Seeing the Milky Way should have made me feel small. Like a tiny particle in the vastness of a system beyond my comprehension. Instead, I felt a warmth that had no explanation and one in which none was needed.
Although life had not always been easy and often it had thrown me curve balls I had yet to understand – at this specific moment in time I felt a perfect, beautiful sense of peace. A contentment that I’m not sure I’d ever experienced.
And then it happened.
Out of the blue; without any intention on my part.
Words were spoken from my mouth, that I had neither anticipated – nor thought of:
“I am so looking forward to the 2nd Coming of Jesus. I hope I am here to see it!”
I recall the words coming out of my mouth. I remember hearing myself say them.
I do not understand how I uttered them. I remember specifically thinking to myself: “Ok, did I just say those words?”
The person who was driving the car responded by saying (something to the effect,) “Um, what did you just say?” Which started a very long conversation chain that I had never intended to engage in. As it turned out the person that was driving was an evolutionist and non-believer.
My unintended, yet spoken, statement opened the door to a series of events of which I could never have anticipated.
I am sharing this story now, because I was supposed to have shared it many weeks ago. I have wrestled with the Holy Spirit to the point of exhaustion. I am tired. If He wants this message shared, it is His Will.
May His Will be done.